tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13548826750646886302012-02-16T22:00:57.205+10:30During my life I have always been searching for where I fit in...experimenting with drugs, sex, alcohol and food. Looking for something, maybe looking for me. This blog is about my journey of self healing and self discovery. The things I know: My name is Kathy often I am called Balwant, I am a Kundalini Yoga Teacher from Adelaide, Australia, I have bi-polar disorder, I seek peace and happiness.The Rarest Gemnoreply@blogger.comBlogger151100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1354882675064688630.post-37747301947197148902011-11-23T18:26:00.000+10:302011-11-23T18:27:03.837+10:30

When I first discovered Kundalini yoga, I was living in Sydney and working at one of the Big 5 Accounting Firms specialising in IT project work. My work was my life and I worked very hard at being who I was. Some months earlier I was involved in a motor cycle accident and found that my life had changed as I couldn’t work as hard and I was slowly becoming depressed and resentful that I was

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"One thing you have to be more than anything else, you have to be you. Nothing less than you will work. You minus ego is always you. You with your ego is always not you.” Yogi BhajanWhat is the Aquarian Age?To some people, the Age of Aquarius is nothing more than a feel-good, utopian slogan dreamed up by a bunch of hippies. Even now, many still scoff at the notion that any kind of positive

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Yesterday I held the first of many community classes. These classes will be held on the first Saturday of every month. The class covers topics such as how Kundalini Yoga came to the West, the benefits of this yoga, Kundalini Energy, Tuning In, Pranayam, what is a Kriya, Meditation, Mantra, Bandhas and more. There is time for discussion at the end of the class and yesterday one of the

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I have left behind Zoloft. I have been taking this for anxiety for 10 years and last week I took my last. I've had a very strange week since. I feel very emotional and have been quite teary. It scares me a little but I have come to the realisation that maybe this is ok. My tears are not that of anxiety, sadness or misery but of love and joy. My heart appears to be open and I feel very

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It's been awhile since I blogged. Funny I thought this would be easy but I have found it rather difficult putting myself out on the interweb. I usually don't find it hard to talk about my issues but actually writing them is difficult. So where to start.... well I went on a Kundalini Yoga Teacher Training Level 2 retreat a couple of months ago and life has been very different since. I

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I teach children on the Autism Spectrum and love it! I have recently been having difficulty filling this class on Saturday mornings and I suspect it is due to the fact that yoga is just another thing that costs. You see these children have many needs. I see them going to therapies every week, some every other day – speech pathology, occupational therapy, podiatry, psychology, naturopathy etc

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I have been pretty flat lately.... I've spent most of my time in bed. I'm not sick just not myself. Sometimes I feel quite crazy. Finally today I did something positive and spoke to someone about how I was feeling. As is usual when I speak to someone new they have a different take on what I should be doing. This makes life a little confusing for me. This guy tells me he can get me off my

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This last weekend we spent our time in Renmark with my parents. They left Adelaide about 10 years ago when they retired and moved to the Riverland and have made a wonderful home and many friends there.In the past I have found it very difficult to spend time with them but this last weekend was great. Over the years Mum and I have battled with my weight, my determination, my strong will but most

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Once upon a time...... I felt different than today. I felt much more motivated and in control. I'm told now I feel just like everyone else as back then I had an elevated level of mania. I did feel like I could do anything I wanted, be anything I wanted to be and watch out for those that got in my way. When I look back at my life there are things that I am not very please with. I can't say

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I once thought I was a very clever woman but for the last decade have often felt different. I once had a very sharp memory, retaining the smallest of things. I have blamed the medication I take for the bi-polar on the fact I now find it hard to remember where I put the external hard drive to fix my broken computer and that I am no where near as organised as I once was. Yesterday I found out

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Today I sat with a very dear friend and talked and listened. I sometimes take her for granted as she has always been such a great listener and is my absolute confidant. I have been sharing my experiences and stories with her for quite a number of years now. As I was looking at her I noticed that she had this aura about her. She radiates and shines. I met this woman about 5 or 6 years ago and

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Sometimes we just accept situations as they are. Othertimes we analyse it to death! Me, I am just learning that when something happens that I don't feel good about it may not be my fault. Often when I have a disagreement with someone I think it is all my fault and my problem - even if I originally didn't bring up the subject, I still turn it all around to be about me. Recently I had an

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One of the things I would like to learn to live with better is the creeping anxiety I often feel. Any number of things can trigger a panic in me. Most of the time the panic is quite small but sometimes it can take over my whole being. I now have tools that I can use to stop a full-on panic attack but today I found it quite hard to keep the anxiety under control. I was shopping for dinner for

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Tomorrow I have my Monday evening woman's class and the topic is Self Healing. It was very hard for me to write the blurb that I am going to speak about. I've sorted out the yoga part of the class and nearly figured the next part. But it brings up lots of things for me. I start with "Self-Healing is not a miracle, our system is designed to heal itself. All we need to do is to remove obstacles

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So where to start? A little about me - I am 46 years old, I live in Adelaide, South Australia with my partner Mick and two cats Shakti and Vishnu. In the last 10 years my life has changed. Back then I was a working in the corporate environment in IT. I had a very busy work and social life. I packed in as much as I could working hard and partying harder. Things change, as they always do and

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